Going to actually begin journaling.

Feel like I wasted the break - didn't get ANYTHING done for the classroom. but oh did I sleep in every day :)

Not entirely sure what I am to do concerning teaching at the middle school or moving to a high school. have a lot of uneasiness about the situation. unsure what is the smart decision considering the long term.

but it is a lazy last sunday and I'm not going to concern myself with anything more than keeping my eyelids open.

I am so wonderfully blessed. I have a tremendous amount of things to be thankful for.

The past few weeks have not been easy. It's never more apparent that Mom died than around the holidays. I have a new family who loves me a lot, but that will never take out all the sting.

I've been reflecting on her a great deal lately. Why did she die? Why did I act the way I did towards her? Why didn't I take more opportunities to enjoy what I had? Why am I ok with a God who chooses to save some and not others? How am I to answer to those who don't believe in God when they question his benevolence?

I won't pretend I know much of any of the answer to these questions. But I know He is good. I know He took care of me right after she died. I know He loves me. And I know He doesn't want me to dwell on the negative, but learn from it if anything. But it still sucks.

I do value life more than ever before I have noticed. I hope I live it more fully than I have in the past.

today, for all intents and purposes, was a fantastic day!

Perhaps we should start with the fact that I no longer have a warrent out for my arrest!
(I will never forget to pay a ticket again. I will never forget to pay a ticket again...)

I no longer owe Oklahoma city $508 either! Phew! Thank you Judge Manger

On top of this, it was only rainy and cool as opposed to windy and 4 degrees

Also had a great beer (Sam Adams dark lager) and a damn decent Carlos Torano cigar

Got to play pool with Two best friends, and enjoy dinner with Liz.



Really, a damn good day. You bless me so undeservedly. Thank You. You're such a good Papa

Liz and I dominated potato soup again. We re really getting the recipe down. Taste even better when it feels like it's 3 degrees outside!

Bbbbbrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Fancy-pants

Ok, so there's no fancy iPhone app for blogger. I guess having a hoity-toity phone w Internet should be enough.


Goodnight moon

I really wish they'd come out with a blogger app for the iPhone that doesn't stink.

                really.

Dad

I would like to be closer to You.  Know You.  You know?

Thanks.  really.  You've really been there for me.  Im sorry I overlooked that 

a lot

a lot a lot.

But thanks. really.

I want my yearning for You to shine thru it all.  let the rest fade... yeah?  

Thanks for working with me.  I know Im stubborn.  well.. maybe I dont.  

but I know Im really an ass sometimes.

I really hope You dont give up on me.  I know You wont because You're You.. 

but I must say it:  I really hope You dont give up on me.

I want to learn to love the right way.  love You the right way.  

and again... thanks